El sol

The sun is a primary cause of my headache... I just might drown in terror.
When I write a letter to Joe I know he'll never read it but I still enjoy telling someone about my day. Senior year is going well minus all the homework I've been getting. Naomi and I have been making acquaintances and reconnecting with old friends. We have also been creating relationships with boys that we don't really like. We smoke weed when it's around and laugh at the most stupidest shit. I feel bad though, next year when I leave she isn't going to have anyone to hang out with. I think I'm going to help her make friends with people in her grade so she won't be completely lonely next year. It's kind of funny how we became friends, her and I, it was almost as if we were fated to be together. Ever since the first day of school we've been connected by the hip. We aren't that much alike but we get along pretty well which is good I guess. I'm starting to realize that even though high school may suck, it can still be fun. I think I still have a lot to learn about myself and these people I've spent the last fours years with so I'm going to fuck around as much as possible.

Algebra 2 Blues

Naomi said, "I am so lost!"
Mandy replied, "Get a map."
Naomi scowled.

Naomi asked, "May I go to the bathroom?"
"Sure," said the teacher

<12 minutes later>

Naomi shows Mandy a new schedule and says, "I'm out of here bitch!"

Spoon full of lust

I've gotten engaged to a handsome man with aquatic eyes and chocolate tresses.

Honey

The best thing you can see in a human lifetime is your name written in the clouds.

What a while it's been

I count my minutes as the hour goes by.
Grab your watch or else I'll steal it;
I was born to be a thief.

My old man never felt sympathy for me.
He just wanted a friend like I want a lover.

No one is important.
No one is famous,
Just well-known.

Morning misery you are so gay
Coming in at late summer
When I've began to be lazy
I wish you'd go away
Oh, this morning glory
I mourn your absence
When you left in the winter
I was in a lonely state of arrogance.

I smoke weed because I enjoy the feeling I get when I stare at myself blanky in a wall. I've learned to control the laughter and I erupt with chatter to make it obvious. My paranoia is something like the Cold War we just left.

Summer is a bummer

Summer rain, I hear you bring great things to our land, so why don't you answer to my prayers?
Oh the pain, I cannot endure much longer; I suffer in my own misery.
I plan to go insane with this lacking amount of water.

Raining Men

I'm in love with these men

Christopher Mintz-Plasse a.k.a McLovin'

Joseph Gordon-Levitt

Justin Beiber

Enrique Iglesias

Robert Pattinson

Gaspard Ulliel

Shia Labeouf

James Franco

Help!

I cut nine inches off my hair, and my head feel pounds lighter.
The only down side is that it doesn't look too great curly so I have to straighten it now.

I've been having awful writer's block and it's really pissing me off.
School sucks. People are lame. There's nothing to do. No one interesting to talk to.
Nothing exists anymore.

The Picture of Dorian Gray
"But beauty, real beauty, ends where an intellectual expression begins."
"You like everyone; that is to say, you are indifferent to everyone."
"I make a great difference between people. I choose my friends for their good looks, my acquaintances for their good characters, and my enemies for their good intellects."


I want things that I can't achieve while living in this city.
I think about people that I don't talk to anymore almost everyday.
I write better when I'm sad.


I wish I can live in this picture.

Taken by Dennis Stock

April rain

Someone once told me: The more people who hate me the less I have to worry about.


The Earth is really starting to shake itself up.
Earthquakes, tsunamis, volcano eruptions, and this weather...?
Oh well, we'll die in ignorance.



Check out this cool cat

This is my nephew, Matix. He is one years old and his favorite words are daddy and happy.









Living in a life full of pumpkins;
Orange and round with faces
Like that of gobilins.

I just finished reading Fahrenheit 451 which was extremely good.
I'm reading The Kite Runner now and I'm enjoying that one as well.
I would quote, but the books are no where near me.

Spring Break

It is officially Spring Break!
I am so excited to finally get the sleep that I've been needing for the past two weeks.

Goals for spring break (subject to change at any moment):

• finish reading the diary of Anne Frank
• finish Farenheit 451 (for English)
• start reading Kite Runner or Naked Lunch (again)
• watch One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
• get a little tan
• teach Molly how to walk on a leash
• clean out closet
• figure out how to use the Nook

Bob Dylan, The Beatles, The Kinks, and The Smiths are my new lovers.
These bands and artist never fail to arouse me with some sort of emotion.
Everytime I listen to their songs I get a sense of what life was like back in the day....when music was good and made sense.
Hmm if only time travel was possible.

Random fact about myself:
I've noticed I'm starting to lose interest in white guys. I think guys that are a little more ethnic or exotic, whatever you want to call it, are more exciting to be intimate with.

I sort of want to get some bangs but the curls in my hair won't agree with them, and I really don't want to straighten my hair everyday. Sooooo maybe bangs aren't such a good idea.
Hm, I feel like I should do something new with my appearance but I don't know what. Maybe I'll go from brown eyeliner to black. Or pink lipstick to red. Gee, somebody slap me with a fish.

I have this friend (I'll call him Bobby Smith) and I want to dress like him but more girlish, of course.
He wears a lot of plaid and collars but nothing close to preppy.
Bobby Smith is a bit like this:

You get the point.

So...a man can't give his address out to bad company.
Advice from Bob Dylan; Absolutely Sweet Marie is the song.


platonic love
noun:
an intimate companionship or relationship, esp. between two persons of the opposite sex, that is characterized by the absence of sexual involvement; a spiritual affection.
-Dictionary.com



Goodbye California,
I will write to you on some other fine night.
But until then... rest in sweet peace.

Only all night

“I might have a girlfriend by tomorrow,” said the one with a ‘fro.
“Did you lose a bet?”
“No,” the one said, “I have been talking to her for a week and I think I’m going to ask her for her hand tomorrow.”
“Oh. Congratulations.”
“Very much thanks… don’t think you’ll be seeing much of me anymore. I’ve got a life of my own now. Good being friends with you.”

The one with a ‘fro found a new heavenly love and with no sympathy the one decided to overwhelm this new miss with his undivided love. I wonder if that miss knows that her ‘fro is an architect of destruction. She must be masochistic because I’d never love a man who misuses his hands. I have never seen this miss but I will assume she fits in the ‘fro’s pocket…’fro is very controlling but has no control of where the hips go…that is (unfortunately) not for love making.

“I’ll give you guys a thousand years.”
“Don’t humor me with your unedifying innocence- I can never live that long.”

Incest

God, I'm so gross.
I don't have anything to talk about anymore.
Look at your shoes. I look at them everytime you walk by and I judge you.
How does that make you feel?

land of Nod means sleep.

I don't like my latin teacher for the embarrassing things he makes our class do.
I don't like socializing with those kids and I think he knows it.
So of course, he makes me "spend time" with the class.
Stupid latin. oiashfioeh!

Naked Lunch quotes:
Ever make sex in no gravity?
Be just and if you can't be just, be arbitrary.
I don't want your money, Honey: I want your time.
You look to me like a man of intelligence.
Three thousand years in show business and I always keep my nose clean. Besides I don't hafta take any shit off any uncircumcised cocksucker.
I'm a fuckin' holy man as of right now.
Life is a school where every pupil must learn a different lesson.
Now, baby. I got it here to give. But if you won't receive it there's just nothing I can do.
Sweet dreams Pantopon Rose.

Ohhh William Burroughs, you really know how to make someone's skin crawl.
Good talent, good stuff you got.

One last thought.
I want to play with a toddler.
If anyone has a baby that needs some lovin', call me.

Kings & Queens

Leonard Nimoy photographs obese women.

What an interesting career...

Easter est en me ear.

There is an owl outside my window sitting on a tree branch
He keeps looking in to my room to see if I'll notice him
When I walk up to him to see what he wants
He asks me "Who?"
And I say "Mandy"
He shakes his head and asks again "Who...who?"
I do not understand what he's asking for
I turn my back to him and head for bed
But before I can take five steps he grabs my arm
I say "Let go"
And he shakes his head no and asks again "Who...who...who killed the man?"
I ask "What man?"
He points a feather towards the golf course and says "That one"
I look to where he is pointing to and see a man hanging from a pine tree
I told the owl "No one killed him, he killed himself"
And the owl flew away.


Happy Easter, fair child.
Why do easter bunnies carry eggs when bunnies are mammals?

Weather smells of women

"To generalize on women is dangerous. To specialize on them is infinitely worse.”

Rudolph Valentino

"A woman may very well form a friendship with a man, but for this to endure, it must be assisted by a little physical antipathy."

Friedrich Nietzsche

"I won't quit to become someone's old lady."

Janis Joplin